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Jul. 6th, 2011

It sure has been awhile...

HELLO to anyone who might still read this!

Where to begin?

How far along: 22 weeks! Only 120 days left!!
Weight gain: 25 lbs.
Boobs: 36D


I get swollen feet in the mornings, mostly, but other than that, the swelling isn't so bad. I could seriously use some feet massages, though, pretty much all day every day. *drool*

I caved and dyed my hair with that Splat Luscious Raspberries color but skipped the bleach. I was so tired of my black and gray (yes, gray) hairs just so lifeless-looking that I had to do something. I feel comfortable with it and now I feel slightly better about my appearance.

It's really hard to gain so much weight when you're someone who is kind of obsessed with weight and body image and all of that kind of stuff. I try not to think about it most of the time, because I know it's good for Ellie...but every now and then, I'll get kind of upset. Mostly its in the dressing room or right before a shower...a lot of times I'll be feeling really good and sexy and all MILF-y, but then...sometimes, I will just start crying. My body looks so different. Clothes fit SO strangely. Everyone says it's all in my belly and boobs, and the rest of me looks the same, but it's hard when I notice every little change. But it's not so bad. I'm maintaining positivity.



I have my glucose testing at the end of the month....not stoked.

Other than that...still planning the baby shower and getting ready for Ellie.
I'm going to see Brand New in San Francisco in September!
Also going to Portland for like four days in August to see my friends, do Maid-of-Honor duties (For Ellie's Godmama!) and have a little baby shower. Mostly, I just really need to get out of here and I miss Libby so much.

What else?

I don't know. I'll update more.
:)


Mama loves you, Ellie.



May. 5th, 2011

Happy news!

I heard the heartbeat for the first time yesterday! I almost cried. My mom definitely cried. The doctor said the baby sounded really great. It was like...a thundering heartbeat! How exciting, I'm so happy the baby is so healthy.


I have some more dreaded fucking bloodwork in two weeks. It's for a greater good. I KNOW. I KNOW. But it still hurts like a bitch. But after those tests. we will be able to know FOR SURE that the baby is totally healthy. So, cross your fingers for my little baby. :)


Today, I am full of headaches and was far too exhausted to go to the gym...but I'm in good spirits. I'm scrapbooking ideas I hear about in baby books, magazines, etc, so I don't forget some of these awesome recipes, ideas, and advice.


<3

May. 2nd, 2011

Interesting pregnancy information

So, people keep telling me how much weight they've gained and it's this and that and huge and there's no way I'll only gain the recommended 25-35lbs. Well, excuse me. I'm still going to try to keep the weight down and still be healthy.

Rate your prepregnancy weight (pounds)
height underweight normal overweight obese
5' < 102 102-132 133-147 > 148
5'2" < 107 107-141 142-157 > 158
5'4" < 116 116-152 153-170 > 171
5'6" < 123 123-161 162-180 > 181
5'10" < 138 138-181 182-202 > 203
Your gain plan (pounds)
if you     
were . . .
underweight normal overweight obese
you should
gain a       
 total of . . .
28-40 25-35 15-25 11-20


Where do the pregnancy pounds go?
maternal stores of fat, protein, and other nutrients 7 lbs
increased body fluid 4 lbs
increased blood 3-4 lbs
breast growth 1-2 lbs
enlarged uterus 2 lbs
amniotic fluid 2 lbs
placenta 1.5 lbs
baby 6-8 lbs
total 26.5-30.5 lbs



My range is 25-35 pounds. And I'm going to try to stick as close to 25 as I can. It would be crazy unhealthy for me and the baby to be any bigger than that. It's also slightly terrifying to gain that much weight at all. *shudder*

I love my new workout plan and I'm going to stay healthy, keep away from pizza, nuggets, and all that stuff. Unless I'm dying for it, DUH. :)


Also, STOP TELLING ME HORRIBLE PREGNANCY/BIRTH STORIES. THEY DO NOT HELP ME AT ALL.

Pregnancy Workouts

Upper/Middle Back
Best Machines: Seated cable row, lat pulldown
Pregnancy Benefit: As your breasts get bigger, your shoulders round forward. Strengthening the muscles between your shoulder blades helps counteract the slump.

Chest
Best Machine: Seated chest-press
Pregnancy Benefit: It's important to create muscle balance in your upper body by working your pecs.

Arms/Shoulders
Best Machines: Biceps and triceps
Pregnancy Benefit: Strong arms. Soon you'll be schlepping a baby, a diaper bag—and the groceries.

Lower body
Best Machines: Leg extension and seated leg-curl
Pregnancy Benefit: Your quadriceps and hamstrings bear the weight of your pregnancy as your belly grows.

Core
Best Exercise: Plank
Pregnancy Benefit: Keeping your abs strong will help prevent pregnancy-induced back pain.
How to: Lower onto all fours so your wrists are directly under your shoulders. Lift your knees off the floor (don't arch your back) so your body forms a straight line. Hold for 1 to 2 breaths, working up to 5 breaths.

Apr. 28th, 2011

My uterus is strecthing, among other weird things.

 I'm on the laptop, which will probably result in longer and more thorough posts on here. I feel far more comfortable in bed with my back supported and so many pillows and comfortable blankets.

Baby Daddy updates, things are really good. We're taking it one day at a time and trying to rebuild everything. I don't really care what anyone else thinks about that, because I know the ups and downs he and I have had. I really want the baby to have a relationship with their dad, though, so as long as that's healthy, that's the most important thing.

We find out the gender on Wednesday, I hope. I no longer care that much if its a boy or a girl, I just want them to be healthy. :)


I'm bored of this entry already. I lose energy really quickly these days...my least favorite preggo feeling. Other than nausea, but that's getting better.


<3

Apr. 25th, 2011

Food aversions, PLEASE GO AWAY!!!

Seriously, these food aversions are killing me. I would much rather be craving everything.
Everything makes me wanna puke.
And then when I do find something I like, after a few bites, I'm SUPER full.
ARGH!
 
 



Me and Val are gonna be such good mommies. She's due about 4 months before I am, and her baby girl is gonna be so cute. I'm glad to have a buddy who is also pregnant going through all of this craziness. I hope I have a girl so our girls can be frans. ;)



I also wanna paint my belly when it's big and cover it in glitter and really LOVE the pictures taken during this time.


Working on my baby shower annnnnnd getting a job. :) : :)

Apr. 22nd, 2011

Adoption...

If you don't know much about my personal family history, genetically, you know as much as I do. I'm adopted, and it's been painfully obvious as far back as I can remember. I've never blended well with my Mormon family, always felt..."other and outside" as I read somewhere. If you're not adopted, you probably won't understand, and that's okay; but maybe you can get the general idea of what I'm talking about. It's weird to be apart of a family that you feel is not anything more than roommates who take care of you financially. I have no desire now, or ever, to be family-affectionate or have bonding moments and all of that. It makes me uncomfortable to think of hugging family. Even now, I get a shudder. After I got pregnant, my mom sent me a big spiel E-mail about this exact topic. I guess I'm not the only one who feels like I am "other and outside".

So, blah blah blah, no family pride. Anyway, on a paper in my kitchen I see the words "Angie Fox" and a phone number in Arvada, Colorado -- where I am allegedly adopted from. (I say allegedly because I have heard a story from someone very reliable that there was much scandal surrounding the adoption itself and did not happen as smoothly as my mom would suggest. JERRY! JERRY! JERRY!)  Let me also say that I didn't know they had contact with her, (her = birth mother) let alone know where she lives, LET ALONE HER DAMN PHONE NUMBER.

 
I am conflicted.
 

Apr. 19th, 2011

16 & Pregnant






I can't imagine how hard it would be to give up my baby for adoption. I'm watching 16 & Pregnant and it's hard to imagine all of that: being so young, giving up your baby, changing your mind, finishing high school...etc.

I don't know. I already feel like I've started to bond with my baby even though it's only about 12 weeks. It would kill me to give her up or lose her. (I'm hoping it's a girl, a few more weeks and WE KNOW FOR SURE!)








I wish I had a more stable daddy situation for the little one, though. I won't go into it, but it's been a really huge stress.

Apr. 18th, 2011

Maybe.

Maybe I won't be showing this to my baby when he/she is older. It seems to be filled with more disappointment than joy.

I'm too sad about everything right now to talk about anything.


But, on a lighter note, when I have my own house, I am going to have a pink kitchen with black and white checkered floor.

Apr. 17th, 2011

Knocked Up

I can't tell if I'm just getting fatter or if I'm starting to get a baby bump.







I have a couple baby daddy books now that have no purpose.


:C






I want to be in Oregon already but it is kind of really nice to not have to do ANYTHING. But I miss my friends. A lot.

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